Hmm... I guess this summer internship of mine is turning out to be a blog mania kind of thing as I am writing something or the other every day. A very special request of one of my very special friends actually makes me write this one. Well I really don’t remember the day when I met her. I just know that I was supposed to meet her & so I did. She had a very syrupy look & when the first time I looked at her she had a weird smile on her face. To be frank that eerie smile of her actually forced me to give her a second look & what I saw the second time round, was completely celestial. A fairy straight from the heaven was sitting beside me. I was so thunderstruck that I could not collect the nerve to talk to her or to at least say a “hi”. We shared the same room for just 15 minutes or so but the night that followed the day helped me to be with her for more than 15 hours. All that I dreamt about her were her appealing face, engaging smile & unusual laugh. I woke up the next day & her face was still spanking new on my mind. That feeling was completely novel for me. All those who know me before that day can easily understand me & the state that I was going through those days. I saw her every day. The glimpse of her was so attractive that I did not want to ruin that. Finally I got a chance to talk to her. We conversed for 10 minutes & trust me I thought I had met my dream girl. The way she talked, the way she argued, the way she nodded her head in disbelief, the way she smiled after getting to know her silly mistake, everything had incredible style. I started noticing the smallest things that she used to do every day. I knew she was getting over me but then could never really stop. I hid my feelings from everybody else as I did not want to make her uncomfortable in the class but never realized that I was actually making my life a hell in the process. Then came the day on which I came to know that she was committed. The very first girl that I ever liked in my life was in love with someone else. Almighty can be truly cruel. There was no change in my attitude though & I still loved her the same way & with the same character. I just realized that I could never get her. Some Karan Johar movie dialogues helped me a lot I must say to keep my spirit high & not to get bothered. Our relationship still remains the same. We are not friends, neither are we strangers. Neither am I moving forward, nor do I have any hope of getting backward. I am completely trapped at one place which I don’t know what to refer as; a dead end, a new beginning or a midst. Well one thing I know for sure that I love her & this thing is never going to change all my life. I wish her best luck for all her future endeavors & hope she gets everything that she wants to.

Hmm….I had not posted something for quite a few days now. So I am satisfying my thirst by posting another one. For those who are wondering where am I getting so much of time from to write blogs when everyone else is busy with their summer projects, let me tell you I believe in effective work which is only achieved when one is in the right kind of mood to work. I am not in one now, so don’t want to waste my time. Well this is the marriage season here in Bhubaneswar. Every day I find two or three processions marching towards the respective bride’s places. To add on to that some of my friends are getting married this summer. I don’t know whether they had a trip to some mental hospital or they took the matrimonial sites too seriously that entitled them to take such a decision at this age. Anyway I wish all of them all the very best for their new venture (I would like to call it that way). At least I am getting a lot of gifts, treats& some last candle light dinners with them. Don’t worry I am not having candle lights with boys because all my friends who are getting married are girls. Boys are as usual busy dumping the old ones, boozing out & chasing the new chicks in town. Thank god I have something more interesting to do with NALCO. To be honest, I am really bugged looking at all these. I guess this bf n gf thing is over hyped. It’s anytime better to be single & enjoy life. Anyways I thought to share my first experience of a serious crush. It happened when I was in standard iii. Imagine a boy like me who never has required 75 % attendance in lectures, never bunked the classes just to get a glimpse of her every day. She was so loving, so caring, knowledgeable & haan more than just pretty of course. She was a goddess I must say. I remember one incident when I stole a picture of taj mahal from my friend’s bag as she liked it very much & I wanted to gift it to her. God, those days were definitely the most rocking ones of my life. She was my Hindi teacher& trust me I got the highest marks in every hindi test that year. Motivations are always for the good, you see. Anyway I am signing out now. Let’s do some project work also. I would invite you all to my marriage. So don’t worry & have fun. Byeeeee.

I fail to understand
1. Why people suddenly develop into aliens just to show some fake attitude?
2. Why people keep on emphasizing on their words even if they know that those are absolute garbage?
3. Why people forget to show some modesty when they are given importance?
4. Why people always say that they care for others when they know it very well that they do otherwise?
5. Why people (like me) keep on talking to their friends even if they know that they are being avoided?
6. Why people always stare at their wrist watches even if they want to stay longer?
7. Why people keep on saying that they are followers of rock music even if they tap their feet to the hindi masala songs?
8. Why people keep on watching IPL matches even if they understand that too much of cricket is not solving the purpose at all?
9. Why people keep on complaining about politics in the country but do not bother to vote for the right candidate?
10. Why JEET KEEPS ON WRITING SUCH HOPELESS BLOGS EVERY SINGLE TIME??? Ha Ha Ha….

Finally I am back at my home sweet home for a period of two months, this time not for fun though, for some serious work. One thing is for sure it is not going to be the same as the NGO project. I would have to work a bit for a change. Well the company that I am working with is NALCO, National Aluminum Company limited. To be honest I have no idea about how a public sector unit carries out its marketing activities. What kind of marketing activities that it does. I am fortunate to work for a Navratna company but still unaware of the profile that I am going to work on. I visited NALCO’s corporate office today, met with some officials as well as my project guide. The first thing that struck me was the punch line of NALCO. It says “Ordinary people, Extra ordinary attitude.” I mean thank god PSUs also give a thought while deciding on the punch lines as I believe they are quite important because they speak for the organization in the simplest way. Hmm it seems I will be having fun working with the company in the export department. Let’s see & hope for the best.

One of my friends referred me as an unreasonable, illogical & a baseless human being today. Ooph!!! The sentence itself is very unreasonable, I must say. Well to be honest she is not the first one to tell me so. A lot many friends of mine have already mentioned that. Though they all understand me very well but then I thought to use my blog as a clarification. First of all let me discard that baseless thing because I am not going to buy that. Because every single living being or anything has some base associated with it. I hope even she did not mean it that way. Anyways let me come to the first two words. Most of my friends take me as that primarily because of my unusual behavior. The first thing that I would like to highlight over here is I always like to keep myself completely wrapped. That does not essentially mean I am rebellious but I am close to a large extent. Close as in from my childhood itself I have never been open to anybody except my mother. Even my father hardly gets to hear a “papa” from me. As I grew up I did not get the chance to interact with my mom like I was doing always. Whenever I needed something I used to say that to my mom who in turn conveyed the same to my father & ultimately I got what I wanted. I have had a lot of friends probably more than anybody else as I have studied in 6 different schools, 3 different colleges for intermediate & graduation & now another college for my post graduation. But not a single one of them knows me to the core as I never wanted them to do so. Anyways coming back to my unusual behavior first of all I have always stayed at places where I was viewed as the son of an administrative officer. If you can’t imagine let me tell you it’s a very hard thing to digest. I don’t really appreciate getting that silly attention just because your father is in a high post. If you start behaving like, you are expected to, then you come out as an arrogant person. When you don’t, then people feel like you are avoiding them. Thank god now I am in such a place where it does not bother me anymore. So all these things actually contributed to my fewer interactions with other people. I JUST BEHAVE UNUSUALLY because I don’t like the formal counterpart of it. I show extra penchant towards someone in the very first meeting because I feel like he/she is one who matches my frequency level. So become good friends rather than taking one step at a time. By friends I mean only friends. I also avoid few from the very first meeting itself as I can figure out that we two can’t share any kind of relationship at any point of time. Now talking about my illogical behavior hmm I would say probably that goes with my image. I never want to really come out as a serious, intellectual person who you can respect. I would rather love to go with an image which nobody notices till it does something extra ordinary. I am not really bothered as I have a knack of doing extra ordinary things often. . Chalo its enough for now. I better give some break to my eyes & go to sleep. I just want to say guys portraying as unreasonable & illogical are the ones who CAN be the most reasonable & logical ones when it is required.

Lagnajit. The winner of time. One who utilizes time in the best manner.
Jeet. The winner. One who does not have a word called losing in his dictionary.
Both the names signify me. But unfortunately I don’t symbolize any of them.

The reason for saying all these is I feel I am trapped at the dead end. I don’t have any ways to come out of it. Some problems that I created for myself, some people feel as created by me & for others I am not responsible at all. But still I am jammed with no solution in sight. I am in a war with no ammunitions with me. I don’t know why I chose to get into all these but probably my ARROGANCE & OVER CONFIDENCE entitled me to do so. Now there can’t be a better phrase for me. “DHOBI KA KUTTA, NA GHAR KA NA GHAAT KA”. Please go through them & if you have any suggestions please come forward with it.
• I am not getting my desired marks at all primarily because of two reasons. First I am not at all serious. I mean I can’t expect to get good marks by studying for just 15 minutes before a midterm or an end term. Though it does not matter for me but still my self esteem does not allow me to be in the average region of the class. I need to be there at the top.
• I am facing problems with my choice of career. My father is strictly against the profession that I have already chosen for myself. Now I guess I will have to make a tradeoff between the two. I just can’t make up my mind how to reach at a negotiating stage.
• Girls are nothing other than destructive weapons. Just when I was coming to the normal mode after going through that entire mental trauma, now I am into another big problem. I just can’t decide what to do. People say boys have no control over their emotions so they just fall for every other girl who cares for them. But I say its bullshit. Why can’t be a boy& a girl be friends only?
Well there are a whole lot of other things that i wanted to write but don’t feel like anymore. So I am cutting it short over here only. You guy stake care & enjoy.

Hmm. Finally I am going to get a day’s off from the mind-numbing classes on the eve of Sunday. I must call it as that only as Sunday is no less than a religious occasion or a national holiday kind of thing for us now. But what a Saturday it has been so far for me!!!

1. I got up at 8.15 in the morning & my first lecture of the day was scheduled at 8.30 that too of Richa mam who does not give attendance to the late comers.

2. My group was asked to present right away in the very first class itself.

3. I actually set a world record I must say by giving the worst presentation ever.

4. In the very next class, our group was again asked to give a presentation in which I actually beat my previous world record set just a lecture ago by giving another pathetic one.

5. Right after the lunch I got another bad news. I got only 14 marks out of 20 in the midterm exam of marketing management where as the students who have not yet got a single B grade in any of the exams had got more than 15.5.

6. The day almost got over till it gave me the most dismal shock. My name has now got a mention in the defaulter’s list of MCS for not attending adequate lectures.

So I am experiencing the nastiest Saturday of my life. The day is over but let’s wait & see what does the night has in store for me.

Hey guys! My writing skills are pathetic. It becomes even more pathetic when it comes down to writing something which involves the feelings of heart. Because I believe I am a person who has a heart only for the smooth transportation of blood & oxygen with no feelings in it. I tried to change myself a lot many times but I guess the Almighty wants me to be like that only.
I believe a lot of words go unspoken which I should speak up. I just want you to know all that.
I don’t know who my love is. Some say she is the first girl that I met when I was in my LKG class. Some say she is the first lady professor who taught me physics in the primary school. Some say she is the first friend of mine who got married last week. Some say she is the first girl friend that I had who walked away from me because she thought our choices did not match & finally very few & to be specific only I say she is the one who has changed my life even before being a part of it. I know she can’t be mine. But I consider myself really fortunate because I get to have a glimpse of her every single night in my dreams.
My Love!!! This one is exclusively dedicated to you…
I love you for WHO YOU ARE.
I love you for your tenderness when I look into your eyes.
I love you for your assertiveness when I don’t make you feel special.
I love you for your bashfulness when my palm touches your hand accidentally.
I love you for your vigor when I walk away from you without expressing my love.
I love you for your appealing look when you say “Please don’t do this.”
I love you for your irritated look when you say “You have to do this.”
I love you for your spongy tone when I say “I love you.”
I love you for your destructive tone when I don’t say “I love you.”
I love you for your poise when you feel that I will be always there with you.
I love you for your anxiety when you feel you will lose me someday.
I love you for your fury when I notice some girl passing by.
I love you for your apprehensiveness when I don’t notice any other girl.
Just want to say you my love!!!
That you are the best &
I love you for WHO YOU ARE.

HUH!!! This is the paramount way to initiate this post of mine. The motive behind such kind of an expression is the celestial experience that I got after being in the board room for duration of more than 9 hrs. it was actually the presentation session of the NGO project that I carried out for a month. It was my first individual presentation before a panel but to be honest I was not in the frame of mind at all. Probably the state level debates & extempore helped. I have so many things to write but then I guess I would have to divide all the matter into different posts otherwise it would become a bhagwat gita. Hmm this post of mine concentrates on my presentation & the criticism that I got from the panel of EXPERTS. When I say experts I really mean that. Well I was the 5th student from the group who was asked to present. It all started on a very lighter note with the panel asking me about my hometown & all. I presented whatever I had to & to the best of my ability. I could figure out it did not go as I expected it to but it was relatively ok. But after the presentation got over I actually got to know that I had given a presentation. The experts started shooting bullets from all angles, some hand grenades were also thrown and rockets were launched. The area covered everything ranging from the mistakes on slides to the blunders during the project work, from the mistakes in the way of presentation to the mistakes on the part of the NGO also. They were shooting & I was showing them all the skills that I had learnt by doing a 2 month course in LIFE STYLE MANAGEMENT (thanks to ITM, for a change). All of a sudden a bullet hit me from nowhere n I got wounded. I was embattled for taking Barak Obama’s name instead of any Indian leader. The first thing that came to my mind was “What the f***”. I wish I could say that at that very moment. The expert who was talking simple shit about his fundas of Indian culture, tradition & all , did not even know that it’s the Indian culture only which says to appreciate others. To quote one of his statements he said “Barak Obama is a politician & a manipulative man. Tony Blair is a better leader.” I can make out that there are only two reasons for such kind of a statement. Either you don’t know the basic definition of a leader or you want to get the attention by giving a completely bizarre statement. I guess it was a combination of the two in his case. There were a lot of other things that happened one after another. I mean the expert did not realize that he was teaching politics to a politician. Manipulating the facts to make it beneficial for me is like in my blood. See Belonging to a family having a landlord, a high court judge & an administrative officer really helps. I should not mention all the things because DIPLOMACY is one of the most important traits to be a good politician which I desperately aspire to be. Anyways I am cutting it short here only. I just want to say that it was his good luck probably that saved him from a clear disaster called JEET. Lastly I would like to say I really respect that person for achieving so much in his life, for having such a vast knowledge in almost every field. I just want to advice him to be a bit flexible. That would command more respect from his students for him. Anyways Sir have a good life. Hope to be in the wrong side of yours someday.

Hi all. I am back again to criticize something which I feel I am very good at. You see its my core competency that i don't want to get rid off. Anyways there is an English word which every ITM student knows about yet they are confused about it. Its not a new issue at all that our batch is experiencing because our predecessors have passed out but till date they don't even know what does that word mean. Well it is DRCC. I just got to know that the full form is development of responsible corporate citizens. Now my friends, can you guess what ways our administration has thought of to make us RESPONSIBLE citizens ? Believe me you can never. Because a lot of EXTENSIVE research has been made by manipulating the EFFICIENT knowledge pool of ITM to give rise to such an INNOVATIVE technique. When i first came across this word i tried to get the full form but then i could not. The administration actually expects us to attend guest lectures, seminars, paper presentations as a part of DRCC post lunch or in the so called leisure time that we get. I don't know what relevance does it have for a marketing student to attend various HR & finance conferences.I don't know what fun they get by blocking our innovation. By blocking our innovation I mean they carry out those things in those hours of the day in which either we are supposed to sleep or simply do nothing. That in turn entitles us to relax sometime other than it which always collides with our STUDY timings.....he he..As far as I am considered I have only 10 % of attendance till date in DRCC..I have already lost 10 marks for not attending a boring HR conference which is not even a subject that i am going to study. I seriously hope the brain which gave this kind of an idea to develop responsible corporate citizens does not get to implement any of its other ideas.Anyways I know I am going to get screwed up for my dismal attendance but still cant help it. Anyways I am signing off now. Buhbye & take care.