Confession OR Confusion

It took me a while to fully explain my predicament to me. I was so very mystified. I knew there was something at the back of my mind always but could never figure it out.  At first I thought to bring up that in my blog. I started penning down the inner voice on a blank page. Surprisingly everything became clear & every curtain just got cleared up one after the other. The more the story was unfolding itself, scarier was it getting. I was getting distressed & the fretfulness was always there. I decided to wind up the story before the story could give its final blow. The way out was to stop scripting or even to obliterate the whole thing. But then I guess I considered necessary some means to put across what I truly felt.

Boys always like to introduce themselves as “aaa bbb, single”. Don’t they? But deep down their heart the hormones always push the feelings to add another line to that introduction. “Ready to mingle” is something that is understood with boys when they say they are single. Things are straightforward when they are ready but their dream girls are not but things get knotty when they get confused themselves. (This paragraph is specially dedicated to Ms. Garnaik & Mr. Jain)

Well in my case things were always clear-cut but I made them convoluted myself. I strived to baffle my friends & in turn entered a self-created labyrinth.

There was this syrupy girl who never became the center of attraction but caught everyone’s eyes in my class. Being completely straight I was no different either. But that was nothing more than an “eye-tonic” (as coined by Ms. Nautanki). When someone asked me about my dream girl it was an obvious choice for me to take her name as anybody would believe it.

The two persons whom I said her name were convinced. Other people started doubting my affair with one of those two. (Gosh! Too puzzling. Is not it?)

Now here go my confessions.

1.       Reason for taking her name before you two was to pull wool over your eyes as I never really wanted anyone to know her name. (really sorry girls, but you know you two are the “best-est” of friends that I have here)

2.      My girl is someone who no one would ever figure out cause she is not the “fall for” type. I don’t really know what I mean by that word. Ha ha. See How Confused I am!  But let me tell you she is one of the mesmerizing human beings to know & you would enjoy every second you spend with her.

3.      They say always save the best for the last. Here goes the deadliest one. Though anybody would hardly believe it but yes I do love her. I love her a lot. Though I know I can’t be with her forever but these last few days will always remain as the best days of life.